As McJagger Says...

Isn't it a Murphy's Law that you always want what you don't have, the grass is always greener, or something like that? Well those trite sayings have never been so true as with me. When I was practicing law I would look at people working at their jobs, my legal assistant, a clerk, a banker, whatever, and envy their 9-5. They could come in 5 days a week, do a fairly unchallenging, stress free job for 8 hours and then go home. I always figured they had lives, they had families they actually got to spend time with. They ate dinner before 9:30pm. Even though their paychecks were far less than staggering, I envied the free time those people had.

But now that I work as a career service counselor in an unchallenging, stress free 9-5job I find myself envying others yet again. Not that I want the life of a practicing lawyer again, hell no. But one of my coworkers who hails from top 100 firm world is now finding herself traveling frequently to conferences, hobnobbing with the hiring partners of top 100 firms, going out for cocktails and using their guest offices. So as my life becomes filled with baby preparation and I won't be reacquainted with a cocktail for another 7 months (at least), my coworker's travels sure sound sexy. Her Friday night involved a hiring partner hitting on her and offering her a job, my Friday night involved cooking dinner, taking a nap, and watching tv on the couch. It's not that my life is awful, or that I'm really complaining about it, I'm not. I'm merely highly aware of the differences as she regales me with tales of her exciting business travel.

I have always wanted the happy family; a great husband, nice house, some dogs, and a kid or two. I will have the whole picture next spring when our little one joins us and I couldn't be more excited. But while most of me can't wait for the world of stay at home mommy-dom, there is a part of me that is screaming "wait! i want the sexy professional life still!" Since I don't live in a major metropolitan area I know I cannot have both.

So I am embarking on a new mission, a new lesson (which is going to be damn hard): learning to be satisfied. Every time I think about things I want or wish I could have, I am going to make myself also think about two things that are really great about my life as it is and be excited about how it will be. The grass won't be greener on someone else's lawn, instead we'll all have AstroTurf.

Why didn't I think of this?

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Florida Education is Broken...so just ignore it and build something new

That seems to be the mentality of Charlie Crist and the Florida Republicans. Florida's public education is one of the worst in the country and the best solution the Republican-run legislature can muster is to spend more tax dollars on McKay Scholarships to send some kids to private schools since the public school they're zoned for and previously attending is crap. Under this theory, a small portion of kids are able to go to "better" private schools on the tax payer's dime, while the problems of public schools are ignored and the majority of kids are stuck with mediocre educations. Instead of spending the money to fix the education system which services the majority of Florida children, Crist would rather let a few students attend the private school of their choice...oh yah, and those private schools have no oversight from the State and don't require FCAT testing so who really knows how good of an education they're providing in return for our tax dollars.
The one smart move Crist made this year (aside from getting the hell out of the Republican party) is to veto Senate Bill 6. This lovely bill would have tied half of teacher's pay to student test scores and new teachers would be hired with no chance of tenure. Don't get me wrong, I think ineffective teachers should certainly be given the boot, but more reliance on a ridiculous standardized test is not the way to accomplish that goal. The teachers at schools that currently under perform (almost always those in the low income areas) already have a hard enough time working with students who may not receive 3 meals a day and who have little parental involvement in education. So your pay as a teacher would primarily depend on whether you were lucky enough to get a position at a good school.
It seems like Florida's solution to its education problems is to find scapegoats and avoid the fixing the real problems. I suppose Florida Republicans don't care if Florida's public schools are abysmal because their kids go to private schools, and thanks to Crist and McKay Scholarship funding they may not even have to pay as much for that privilege.

Now how much do you want to drill, baby?

Since Sarah Palin first uttered that ridiculous battle cry, "drill baby drill", Americans have ignored those little things called facts and rallied to put an oil drill off every coast in the country. These ignorant demands had become so loud that even Obama caved and blew off his campaign promises for increased environmental protection and opened waters off the north coast of Alaska, the southeastern Atlantic, and the Gulf. While this move made me see red, the red-state Republicans were begrudgingly saying Obama had come to his senses. All was right in this hypocritical, instant-satisfaction society of ours.....until this past week.

Now, as we all know, millions of gallons of oil are pouring out of the blown up oil well heading swiftly to the Gulf coast. Only now after 11 men are dead and we have an environmental catastrophe with no solution in sight are folks starting to see that 'drill baby drill' might not be our saving grace after all.

Sadly, I am not hopeful for change. Obama is still allowing all of the new offshore drilling and once the memory of this tragedy has faded, the rally cry will begin again. The nonsense of all of this pains me. Even as early as 2004 it was well known that domestic off-shore drilling would do little more than take a few cents off at the gas pump. "But even the additional domestic production would not be enough to overcome increased demand, meaning continued heavy reliance on imports, the EIA said. " Associated Press, March 16, 2004.

Republicans are always focused on the bottom line, so I can't understand how once they consider the cost-benefit analysis of off shore drilling that they are still so adamant for it. The cost: risk of similar explosions (they still don't know what caused this one) with an unknown number of deaths, certain environmental destruction, and huge government cost when things do go wrong. The benefit: a very very tiny percentage of the oil we use every day, not likely to reduce gas cost since the oil companies set those prices and keep making record profits.

And if the human and environmental loss and tragedy of this spill don't touch a nerve, just think about the millions of dollars the government is spending on the clean up. All those Coast Guard planes, boats, helicopters, personnel surprisingly are not free. And BP has yet been asked to foot the bill.

Working, but not Practicing

It's true - I got a job! Whatever Deity you choose to believe in has truly blessed me. I had about 6 weeks of life as a domesticated goddess followed by a 3 week vacation of a lifetime (planned and paid for before the hostile takeover of my career), and then started at the new position. In this economy that really is nothing short of a miracle, and believe me, I appreciate just how lucky I am.
So what is this new position that dropped from the heavens just before the new-present shine wore off from the unemployment checks? No details of course, but I will say that I have entered the world of academia as a career services counselor at a law school. Because the position requires a JD, I still somewhat feel like a lawyer even though I no longer practice law (at least until I have to tell a practicing lawyer what I do). Although I can't continue to claim a prestigious job with a sense of self-importance, I love my new job!
I work 9-5, with an hour lunch, no weekends, and if I take a day off I don't have to make up my time. I still catch myself trying to note the time when I return from a meeting or after a student appointment, but then a smile crosses my face as reality hits that there are no billable hours here! A month in, and the hardest part of my job is making sure that I tell students the truth and what they need to know about working as an attorney without scaring the living crap out of them or making them run to financial aid and demand their money back.
Since I don't have tales of practice nightmares anymore, my goal is for future blog posts to reflect on the legal market, legal academia, and commentary on the state of the law and the world. Of course me and tangents are close friends, so you never know.

Vacation time is no time at all

As an attorney your time is only measured in billable hours and it is actually one of the perks of the job that you don't have to clock in or out so long as you bill your hours. So how do vacation days fit into that?

A former co-worker of mine who also left my former firm never took any vacation time in the past year of work. The firm gives 13 paid vacation days to attorneys and staff alike, but the difference is that the attorneys have to make up the billables that they lose in taking those days. I was told by a partner that the firm does not actually track the attorneys' vacation days because it doesn't matter how many days we take so long as we bill our hours. So then, the question becomes...when an attorney leaves the firm do they get paid for the vacation days they didn't take?

If you have to make up those hours you take on a paid vacation day then do you actually ever get paid vacation? Think of it this way: how fair would it seem if my husband, who works exactly 40 hrs per week and clocks in and out in his federal gov't job, had to work weekends to make up for the paid vacation time he took? It's just moving shifts, not taking vacation.

It's really surprising to me that this issue has not gotten more attention. At least an honorable mention of this problem in law school ethics class when they break down exactly how many hours you have to work a week to get 2000 hrs a year.

So what does my former co-worker do? Should he be paid for 13 days that he never took, or can the firm write him off and say too bad if he didn't make his billable requirement for the year?

2 weeks could be 2 years

In the past two weeks since my departure from the world of litigation I have visited with friends, done about 20 loads of laundry, hosted a house guest, and cooked my husband 5 batches of chocolate chip cookies. I am officially domesticated and loving it. After attending an Inns of Court meeting two nights ago, it occurred to me how quickly I forgot about the ball and chain of my old firm and how amazingly fast my brain turned off the lawyer mode. It was like a reunion with my professional life. A little nervous that I wouldn't fit in anymore, anxious to see what had changed, and reminiscent of my past career. Even that sounds like I stopped practicing years ago, when really it was only two bloody weeks! The past two weeks have been lovely, really. Sure, there have been some moments of freak out when I wonder if I will ever work again and feel utterly useless, but mostly I wake up relieved each morning without the impending sense of doom that used to foreshadow my morning coffee with Matt Lauer. Now my morning coffee is two cups and I share it with Kathy Lee and Hoda because I sleep past the real news. So in keeping with my new found light-heartedness and refreshed sense of hope I will no longer write griping, wining, or bitchy posts...or at least try to.